A Sick Boy at Home and The Thoughts it Sparked (Blurb)

 

I talked about my kids safety last week and this week is not much different, though.. it is different.  It is a different kind of safety.. a different kind of desire.  My son, Elijah, was sick.  I was at work, and he was at home being cared for by my wife.  This was well and good - I did not feel he was not getting the care he needed, I just wanted to be there for him.

Elijah is a tough kid - he can go through a lot and will not stop a beat, but when Melanie told me he was sick, she was sure to mention he was being extra loving.  Me.. when I am sick - when I am really, really sick.. I become a whiny baby.  My wife likes to bring up the time she was dealing with pains from gall bladder problems and I would call her from our bedroom asking for her to get me water.  Maybe one day I will go more into that, but it seems Eli becomes just as pathetic.

I just wanted to get to the house and hold my boy in my arms comforting him.. I wanted to forget everything else and just be his safe place ... but then.. I remembered my daughter .. and realized how she would feel if I did.. I understood she would be hurt by what may seem like me ignoring her and focusing on Elijah.  Whether he was sick or not would not matter to her - she would want some attention too. 

I immediately was hit with the idea for this blog and noted it down.  I also noted I had not gotten home so what would happen was still 'up in the air'.  This is important because.. when I got home - everyone was fine and It was like returning on a normal day.  Elijah and Kyley ran to give me my welcome home hug.  Mel handed me Asher and I held him for a moment and then just settled in.  Nothing different, no problems with feelings.. no sickness.. just like any other day.

I guess, in the end, there was a potential for many disasters, but the one I really understood and dealt with, without even realizing it, way the possibility of my disappointment.  For some reason I felt the need to understand that the end result had not played out yet and I should wait it out.  I was actually a tiny bit surprised by it being such a normal day when I got home.  I could have been disappointed that all my careful thoughts and planning for my children were without merit, but I was not worried.

There are times I would like my kids to understand where credit is due, but then there are times I need to realize it is ok they not know what I have been through for them.  One day they will understand - they will know the truth of it, and even if it is far, far in the future - they will appreciate it. 

Think back to the people who were there for you, and realize they likely did more for you then you will ever know, as well you likely do not even know who some of the most influential people are in your life, because they never took credit .. just smiled and knew you were well off.

You can as well be that for someone else - you do not need credit, you do not need your 'work' to 'pay off now'.  You just need to trust it will do good.  Give it to God and let Him hold it - let Him get credit and you will be blessed.  It may just be a short time of pure joy, but I know in my life .. it .. is something I would love to have each and everyday ... joy... 

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